Feeling broke

Well the funds are certainly taking a knock this year with tvs and cars breaking down, boilers refusing to turn off the heating in summer and we have birthdays galore! Every time we have money come in, something happens where it just pours out again. Guess that's a positive in glass half full world though, that the money is actually coming into us in the first place. I just hate how debt, no matter how big or small, is just part of our life nowadays. The cost of living is going higher, higher, HIGHER, whereas earnings are staying put. I suppose it was expected after the economic disaster last year, and we now have to go down this route to put it but it's playing havoc with our finances lol. Think it's time to start moonlighting!!! (used to love that show by the way / cybill sheppard & Bruce willis - GETTING ALERT,GETTING OLD ALERT!!!)

iPhone geek

Well I am typing this from my new iPhone and apart from a few goes on the iPod touch, this technology is completely new to me with an app for this and an ap for that. I think it is a sign of crossing the age line with a new fear of technology and what it means hor the future, rivalling with the adolescent that stays routed in my memory and who loves her gadgets. It's at times like this I realise how much of a walking contradiction I am. I think it is down to being a Pisces. There is a theory that Pisces are the only sign of the zodiac to have traits of every sign due to being the last one on the circle, mmmm will have to check on that. On to other things, my niece and I are all booked in to see the next Twilight movie, only 15 days to go!!! And I have also completed the next house of night series and I am desperate for the next ond to come out!!!!!! I am on a teenage vampire fascination role....yay! I am also designing my own clipart for my greeting card designs to get around the whole copyright issue and I'm close to finishing my first book. The time is forever getting closer for me up do something with them both and I am scared ax much as I am excited....new territory and rejection letters, here I come!!!!!

Happy Birthday Faye Loretta!

I just have to say a very BIG happy birthday to my gorgeous niece Faye. She is 15 years old, stunning (and way too modest for her own good), talented and way above her years. WAG is not her bag baby and she is a trendsetter in every way. She inspires me to go back to my dreams and I truly hope she never gets a 9 to five!! I've told her so! Happy birthday me hunney and Twilight buddy!!! Love Auntie Katie Mental Pants x

House of Night Series

I have two words to say..."Oh, wow.."...Ok, these words may not fall in the english dictionary category as actual words but anything less would miss my point. This series was pointed out to me by my ultra funky cool niece Faye, and from the first page I was hooked. They say there will be 9 books to the epic, having published 6 of them and no.7 due for release April 2010 (can't wait!), and it has taken me about a week to read the six I had for my birthday!!! Love 'em. It is about a school called the House of Night, and nicknamed Vampyre Finishing School by the locals. It sounds cheesy, and makes you dubious, but this is one heck of a story with a whole new take on vampires....!! My new top favourite.

The Unknown

I have a meeting on Monday that will determine if I go back to my job on the new hours that I have requested, or even if I go back at all. Since initiating the meeting I am now feeling so emotional in case a.) I have to go back and b.) I have to find another part time job to accommodate both children. I am terrified of going back to work for some reason, part of that being leaving Serenity, another part of that dreading the motorway drive in and out, and another piece being the office politics. It's the type of thing where once you have had reflection on it, on how you handled things or dealt with the day to day routine of work, and you discover areas where you want to change for the better and improve; but knowing there is a risk that once you're thrown back into it, the old bad habits come storming back. I know I will be probably be fine once I am back into it, if that happens, but it's the unknown at the moment that is making me very emotional. I feel like going back is going backwards, more away from my goal as writer or doing something more creative for a job; something that I have always worked towards. Being at home, working on these projects have given me the incentive I have always needed, moving closer and closer to my goal, but I fear all of that will disappear again once I'm back at work.
Part of me likes not knowing what tomorrow will bring, but another parts of me hates it. I guess I will know more on Monday, and I will just have to wait and see.

'Love Hurts' Synopsis

"Wow," She said, as the word tumbled from her mouth, her eyes looking around the cavern, her senses reeling. "You really do live in dark places."
He smiled as he noted the light teasing in her voice, watching her feel the stone walls.
"This is just the back entrance Callie, keep moving. We'll soon be inside."
Caledonia kept moving through the flame lit cavern, wondering what would be on the other end. Maybe she would walk into a mansion and an Albert-lookalike would serve her tea. Oh, she shuddered. This gorgeous man walking behind her would look good in rubber. Caledonia shook her head at her train of thought and the irony of bats and vampires as she walked through a cave tunnel. She was a grown woman for goodness sake, one that read too many novels and watched too many movies that went down this track, but a woman nonetheless. Yet, she had still said yes when Harper Stanley VII had asked her to come to his home; she had still said yes even though she knew Harper Stanley was a vampire, and a famous vampire at that. What the hell was she doing?

February o'lay!

It is February, and aside from the restricted cash flow, the crying of the credit card, and the one hundred other birthday celebrations to organise....it is also the celebration of mine!!! Yay!!! Being 31 is not so bad, because it's near the lower end of the scale of 30. I think I can just about cope with that. It is also the time for Valentine's day and I hope my husband likes his pressie! Can't say what it is yet, just in case he decides to go all ironic and choose this particular moment to read the blog; you never know! I quite like the day, and not so much for the commercial - in your face, gimme money - kind of way, but moreso a day where you can actually learn new ways to say 'I love you' to someone every year - and the less cost, more thought, the better....the cost needs to come on the wedding anniversary!! (laughter and evil cackle). So, I guess that is February, apart from just a little bit of selfish frustration!! I wanted to take the opportunity of my birthday to venture to Warwick Castle this half term so I could do some ol' research and takes some pictures for my book, but the plans have had to be adjusted due to husband having his wisdom teeth out during the same week. Wouldn't mind so much, but I already had to restrict my 30th due to being pregnant...!! Dear me, no consideration ;)...!! Still can't wait for the presents though, and that to me is what birthdays are all about....wooooo!